A Chaotic Mind

glimpses of the world through the lens of my perception

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blacktycoon:

Don’t you hate when sometimes the only solution to a math problem is to throw around random values for x until you find one that works

i swear, sometimes it’s like you actually need to do that, and it always feels like the wrong thing, that you’re underthinking it

fuck i hate math homework so much

I usually found in those situations that I was OVERthinking it, actually … but this is on the other side of 5 years not doing formal math…

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blacktycoon:

Does the word “pretty” used before an adjective decrease or increase it?

eg: Pretty good, pretty hard, pretty tasty

I’ve always though it decreased, but it could probably work for either

It’s literally all in context and tone of voice. thanks English. :)

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blacktycoon:

"Up A: Shepard swings his/her arm up in front of him/her, stabbing above him/her with his/her Omni-tool."

i’m in pronoun hell

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gonna change that first part to “Shepard uppercuts” or “Shepard does an uupercut”

dude, you can just use they/their. It’s perfectly acceptable to use they/their as a singular pronoun. Like there is literally no problem with it, it’s done all the time, and especially in this context (where pretty much everyone will know that Commander Shepard can be male or female), no one will even blink.

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rosejanenoble:

mindlessgonzojam:

that-random-romanian:

By Thomas Sanders

No exceptions.

All of the timing in this video is flawless.

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Anonymous asked: What are the signs of emotional abuse?

baraphomet:

rifa:

mental-health-advice:

Abusive Expectations - Makes impossible demands, requires constant attention, and constantly criticizes.

Aggressing - Name calling, accusing, blames, threatens or gives orders, and often disguised as a judgmental “I know best” or “helping” attitude.

Constant Chaos - Deliberately starts arguments with you or others. May treat you well in front of others, but changes when you’re alone.

Rejecting - Refusing to acknowledge a person’s value, worth or presence. Communicating that he or she is useless or inferior or devaluing his or her thoughts and feelings.

Denying - Denies personal needs (especially when need is greatest) with the intent of causing hurt or as punishment. Uses silent treatment as punishment. Denies certain events happened or things that were said. Denies your perceptions, memory and sanity by disallowing any viewpoints other than their own which causes self-doubt, confusion, and loss of self-esteem.

Degrading - Any behavior that diminishes the identity, worth or dignity of the person such as: name-calling, mocking, teasing, insulting, ridiculing,

Emotional Blackmail - Uses guilt, compassion, or fear to get what he or she wants.

Terrorizing - Inducing intense fear or terror in a person, by threats or coercion.

Invalidation - Attempts to distort your perception of the world by refusing to acknowledge your personal reality. Says that your emotions and perceptions aren’t real and shouldn’t be trusted.

Isolating - Reducing or restricting freedom and normal contact with others.

Corrupting - Convincing a person to accept and engage in illegal activities.

Exploiting - Using a person for advantage or profit.

Minimizing - A less extreme form of denial that trivializes something you’ve expressed as unimportant or inconsequential.

Unpredictable Responses - Gets angry and upset in a situation that would normally not warrant a response. You walk around on eggshells to avoid any unnecessary drama over innocent comments you make. Drastic mood swings and outbursts.

Gaslighting -A form of psychological abuse involving the manipulation of situations or events that cause a person to be confused or to doubt his perceptions and memories. Gaslighting causes victims to constantly second-guess themselves and wonder if they’re losing their minds.

Love, Salem

important read for everyone

Anyone who reblogs this and adds commentary like “aw man this is me” “wow i suck” “this is why i’m alone” etc. etc. etc., you are doing EXACTLY WHAT THIS LIST OUTLINES AND IT IS AN ABUSE TACTIC AND YOU NEED TO STOP.  

I realise that’s harsh, and I certainly don’t have all the answers, but I am very familiar with that kind of reaction.  Wallowing in the truth does nothing— get away from the people you could (or do) hurt unless you are willing to consciously, genuinely pinpoint what you are doing wrong and what you are going to do about it, and be open/receptive to criticism. Just accepting that it’s unchangeable is weak and shitty AND using it to guilt others into sympathy is viciously manipulative. 

I mean— thank you, to anyone who has used this post as an excuse to mopily admit to their bad behaviour, because it lets me know that you are not using this post as a learning tool but rather to perpetuate the same unacceptable patterns.  Please just— if you understand it is an issue, if you are honestly cognisant of it, work to change it. 

Having grown up in a household that creates/nurtures this, and befriended people for whom this is normal, I too have dealt it to others.  That’s awful.   It sucks, it really sucks to realise that you have made some harmful mistakes.  I can’t take it back, but I can work hard to ensure it never ever happens again, and have the knowledge that it’s not how things have to be and I’m not tied down to anything that happened in the past.  It’s NOT set in stone.  You don’t have to be a willing participant in your own reprehensible behaviour— have the decency to consider how you might be diminishing the well-being of others, be honest about it and give yourself space from who you’ve hurt.  Don’t settle for being an abuser.

I myself am doing really well after, with some difficulty, shaking off basically everything I knew about interpersonal relationships, re-evaluating my own self-worth, meeting new people, getting help from a really supportive professional or two.  Any embarrassment or distress on your part has to be the least of your concerns.  I have people who support me and who I in turn support, and being able to exist with no shred of ill-will or sneaky scary underhanded bullshit is so relieving and wonderful.  I still have to enter the spaces where that kind of behaviour exists around me, and that can be really scary, but I’m well-armed now, more than ever before.  Anyway if you reblog this feel free to delete all this shit hahaha

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Women and ADHD

actuallyadhd:

The number of girls diagnosed with ADHD is lower when compared to boys. Unfortunately, ADHD has a tendency to present differently in girls than in boys. Instead of being the hyperactive, impulsive male stereotype, they are the inattentive daydreamers who do not cause any problems. They can be the underachievers who are caught up in their thoughts, or the signs of hyperactivity/impulsivity can be dismissed for someone just being a chatty Catherine or a troublemaker. Not to mention, all the comorbidities that exist with ADHD…

It took me going through two psychologists and a psychiatrist before I got treatment for it. There is a whole story behind me coming to the realization that I needed to be tested or see someone for ADHD, but that isn’t important right now. While I do have moderate to severe anxiety, which can cause ADHD-like symptoms, my close friends and fiance all noticed and thought I had blaringly obvious signs of ADHD, but I didn’t notice. Besides, no one noticed or they wrote it off as character flaws. I was a good girl. I didn’t want to disrupt anyone. In high school, I even did well, but my whole life was a literal disaster. I have the hardest time with organization and keeping myself in a rhythm. I tried so hard to be consistent, but I always faltered in some way. Not to mention the feelings of being out-of-sync with most people and all those times where you can’t remember parts of what your teacher said, so you get exceedingly anxious you are forgetting something and are almost compelled to ask questions after class. 

Anxiety and ADHD have very similar symptoms of each other. Both can mimic each other’s symptoms, however many psychologists estimate that 20% to 50% of ADHDers have a comorbid disorder. A large percentage of that percentage have an anxiety disorder of some sort (yes, you can have OCD and ADHD). And remember that ADHD is a spectrum disorder, much like Autism, in the sense that there are degrees of severity and in what symptoms you exhibit. While everyone struggles with disorganization or forgetfulness at one time or the other, there comes a point where it becomes too much and it adversely affects your functioning.

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drhanniballecter:

svasio:

cdaae:

drhanniballecter:

Please remember that once Sierra Boggess fell through a trap door on stage, hit her chin on the way down which caused one of her front teeth to come out, and she KEPT SINGING.

The stage manager had to literally come out on stage to stop the performance and take her to a hospital.

During Phantom?? When?? Why has no one spoken of this before now??

That happened in Vegas, I believe.

Yep, Vegas. It was a Phantom production.

She talks about it in this interview.

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Filed under yeah this doesn't surprise me at all. you keep singing. you just do. it isn't something you'd think about.

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krahka:

kaylotta replied to your post “Yo, so campus church group that’s meeting in the library lounge where…”

:( You’re worth way more than that. I’m here if you want to chat. & FWIW, I’m really sorry to hear of more people calling themselves Christians getting human interaction, & honestly their own faith, super wrong, and harming people in the process.

There’s a lot of reasons that I’m no longer Christian, but in the end, I hold no ill will towards the religion. The church, however, yeah, they could do with listening to their own teachings for like, five seconds.

I agree that there are an overabundance of denominations/churches/people in general who are getting it really wrong. It’s very sad. I suspect it may be much the same for other religions, but of course I can’t speak to those as I’ve got just above zero context and knowledge. In any case, it’s not solely disregarding/misinterpreting the directions of their own faith when people bother you like that - it’s just disregarding the inherent worth of another human being.  It’s sad and cruel.  Why on earth would anyone think it’s okay to go and bother someone who is clearly in distress about their religious views?  Like - if they’re truly convinced that Christianity will ‘cure’ depression (such bullshit.) - then I could see that being an honest intention; but it honestly bothers me that no little red flags fly when it comes to actually approaching someone like that.  

Sorry.  I am rambling a bit.  :/  My point is that people shouldn’t do that to you or anyone else, and I’m sorry they did, and I hope they keep themselves to themselves in the future because holy crap get your heads on straight people.

Filed under krahka replies do i dare tag this christianity? fuck i don't know. faith must also embrace doubt religion depression mental health people totally missing the point of christianity sigh

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last-snowfall:

geardrops:

swanjolras:

out of all the aspects of millennial-bashing, i think the one that most confuses me is the “millennials all got trophies as a kid, so now they’re all self-centered narcissists” theory

like— kids are pretty smart, y’all. they can see that every kid on the team gets a trophy and is told they did a good job; they can also see that not every kid on the team deserves a trophy, and not everyone did do a good job

the logical conclusion to draw from this is not “i’m great and i deserve praise”— it’s “no matter how mediocre i am, people will still praise me to make me feel better, so i can’t trust any compliments or accolades i receive”

this is not a recipe for overconfidence and narcissism. it is a recipe for constant self-guessing, low self-esteem, and a distrust of one’s own abilities and skills.

where did this whole “ugh millennials think their so-so work is super great” thing even come from it is a goddamn mystery

what fucking kills me is, yeah, maybe we got the trophies, but who gave them out

this is not a recipe for overconfidence and narcissism. it is a recipe for constant self-guessing, low self-esteem, and a distrust of one’s own abilities and skills.

Which is pretty much what mental health practitioners observe happening.

It’s also what I observed happening as a singing teacher: the older kids literally would not believe a positive word I said until I had proved I would tell them they screwed up/had done badly/etc. I did so in as useful a way as possible (“So this passage. We really need to work on this passage. A lot. This passage is not good yet.”), but with almost every adolescent I taught I had to prove I would give them straight-up criticism before they would parse my praise as anything other than meaningless “the grownups always do this” noise.

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Filed under amen millennials self-confidence self-esteem narcissism bolding is mine although i also had the problem of criticism rarely being constructive AND direct it was always 'well you know this could maybe use some work it's not as good i'm not sure about this bit' and that's really not helpful it's not guiding you just sound wishy-washy please just this needs work okay? these bits are not great here are some ideas on how to improve it here are some good parts look at what you did here figure out why it's good here are some hints then apply those lessons to the bits that need work

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meganleestudio:

'Women In Science' 
Chronological mosaic featuring nine awesome female Rock Star Scientists.• Ada Lovelace - considered the world’s first computer programmer for her work on Charles Babbage’s early mechanical general-purpose computer, the analytical engine.• Marie Curie - a pioneer in the field of radioactivity, as well as the first person honored with two Nobel Prizes in both physics and chemistry.• Lise Meitner - Nuclear physicist who was part of the team that discovered nuclear fission (when one atom splits into two and releases energy).• Barbara McClintock - ground breaking research in cytogenetics and developed the technique for visualizing maize chromosomes. Best known for her discovery of transposition and used it to demonstrate that genes are responsible for turning physical characteristics on and off. • Grace Hopper - computer scientist whose work led to one of the first modern programming languages. She also popularized the term “debugging” for fixing computer glitches after being motivated by an actual moth removed from the computer.• Rachel Carson - marine biologist, conservationist, and author who reported the dangers of the synthetic pesticide DDT and it’s effect on wildlife. • Rosalind Franklin - contributor to discovering the fine molecular structures of DNA, RNA, viruses, coal and graphite.• Esther Lederberg - microbiologist who devised the first successful implementation of replica plating and helped discover and understand the genetic mechanisms of specialized transduction. • Jocelyn Bell Burnell - astrophysicist who discovered the first radio pulsars (signals coming from rapidly rotating neutron stars). Some have called this the “greatest astronomical discovery of the twentieth century.”(now available as prints and tshirts at meganlee.etsy.com)
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meganleestudio:

'Women In Science' 

Chronological mosaic featuring nine awesome female Rock Star Scientists.

• Ada Lovelace - considered the world’s first computer programmer for her work on Charles Babbage’s early mechanical general-purpose computer, the analytical engine.

• Marie Curie - a pioneer in the field of radioactivity, as well as the first person honored with two Nobel Prizes in both physics and chemistry.

• Lise Meitner - Nuclear physicist who was part of the team that discovered nuclear fission (when one atom splits into two and releases energy).

• Barbara McClintock - ground breaking research in cytogenetics and developed the technique for visualizing maize chromosomes. Best known for her discovery of transposition and used it to demonstrate that genes are responsible for turning physical characteristics on and off. 

• Grace Hopper - computer scientist whose work led to one of the first modern programming languages. She also popularized the term “debugging” for fixing computer glitches after being motivated by an actual moth removed from the computer.

• Rachel Carson - marine biologist, conservationist, and author who reported the dangers of the synthetic pesticide DDT and it’s effect on wildlife. 

• Rosalind Franklin - contributor to discovering the fine molecular structures of DNA, RNA, viruses, coal and graphite.

• Esther Lederberg - microbiologist who devised the first successful implementation of replica plating and helped discover and understand the genetic mechanisms of specialized transduction. 

• Jocelyn Bell Burnell - astrophysicist who discovered the first radio pulsars (signals coming from rapidly rotating neutron stars). Some have called this the “greatest astronomical discovery of the twentieth century.”

(now available as prints and tshirts at meganlee.etsy.com)

Designs by Megan Lee Studio, LLC

facebook.com/meganleestudio  

 

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